You Already Are All That You Desire.

These are the words that came to me in a deep state of meditation.  I sat there in silence, looking at myself staring back at me when these words were spoken.

“You already are all that you desire”.

I shivered.  I sobbed.  I realized that all that makes me unique and an asset to this world is exactly who I am to be.  Not conformed to unappealing standards like a box; yet to be completely, unapologetically myself.

When choosing to transform my life, I knew that growth would come with discomfort and loads of change.  I was unsure of how much of that growth would allow for staying who I thought I needed to be.  There were times when I felt that maybe I should alter my personality to appeal to other’s expectations, change this or that, only to realize that I already am exactly who I am supposed to be, without bending or tearing who I am now.

My life is unique; beautiful and growing.  I don’t apologize for my past: it has shaped me into who I needed to be and that is more valuable than regret could ever be.

We are created to be more than the conscious mind can comprehend.  We are created to expand, become uncomfortable in order to grow, be more than we see with the naked eye: to be exceptional in every way.

When these words came to me, I was sitting on the floor in my closet (that’s my spot to meditate – its dark, quiet and spacious) in a deep state of subconsciousness.  Every cell in my body was being drawn to the front of my head.  A pull, if you will, to my third eye (pineal gland area).  I saw a version of myself staring back at me.  Flowing, graceful and at peace.  She (I) was saying “You already are all that you desire” over and over again.  She didn’t stop.  In a voice quiet and serene, she continued to recite those words as she slowly came closer.  I never steered from her gaze.  I was mesmerized and in awe.

I began to say the same words and felt shivers flowing through my entire body.

As I said those words, I felt them.  I knew that this message was meant to awaken me from the fear of being fully who I am; to not be afraid of the world, to give who I am to help others truly embrace a deep rooted love for themselves.

She began to fade away.  As I kept repeating what she had said, I sobbed.  Those words struck my core like nothing I’ve ever felt before.

I had heard of being open to receiving message from God, the Universe, Spirit, Angels – whomever you believe, yet I had never experienced anything like this before.

We have the power to completely change the momentum of our lives.  I know, I’m proof.

Being connected to a spirituality that confirms that who I am is all that I need to be is reassuring that my life’s purpose is on-spot and aligned with a higher power than myself.

Trust in yourself.  Have faith in fresh starts. And, ultimately, like I did – if you need help reaching ground again, seek help.

Love yourself for who you are, that’s where new beginnings start.


  1. beth on April 28, 2020 at 3:59 pm

    What a beautiful tale of your journey to self