Healing light.

When I chose to heal myself, I knew there would be roads I’ve never traveled. I knew there would be emotions buried deep inside that I’d have to face and stories I’d have to relive, yet making the choice to be my best self was much more appealing than my fears.

We’ve all had them.. days, or even weeks of discontent. Mine was last week. As I’m diving farther into my coaching training, part of the process is to develop my personal mindset. To understand the why, how and such of why I am creating the life I’m living. Am I living with intention or merely existing? Am I living the best life I can live, for myself and my family? These, among other questions, have been pulled into the light of who I am and who I want to be. Last week was rough. I felt emotional, drained, confused, and simply sad.

After making peace with all of the emotions that hit me, I knew it was okay to feel them, but it was time to release them and keep moving forward. With the help of lengthy meditation sessions, positive affirmations (on repeat in my mind!), and prayer, I was ready to let it all go. As skeptical as some may find it, I can honestly say that what I’ve learned has been life changing.

We hold a power in ourselves that is insane! We create the world we live in, good and bad. We hold the power to become who we are, who we want to be and, with guidance, we can help those around us change their world as well! You may think this is all far fetched, and I hear ya! But don’t discredit it until you try it. Believing that you have the power to change from existing to living is a game changer.

After feeling everything I had bottled up inside last week, then releasing it, its a feeling I’ve never encountered before. If you know me, you may (or may not) know that I tend to hold emotions in. I let them fester until I’ve hit bottom then they to boil over. This is NOT a good way to deal, but its what I had always done. Until now. Now I realize that there is no shame in feeling how you feel, processing it, and letting it go. There is no shame to being vulnerable to yourself. You may not want the world to see you breaking, and I get that.. really I do! But for me to sit at my computer at 5am to tell you about how sickened I made myself feel for so long, only to realize that this doesn’t have to be my reality.. trust me, I get it!

We are the only ones who can change our perceptions. We are the only ones who hold the keys to our happiness. We are the only ones who can live our lives with intention. No one else can do it for you. Don’t place all your existence in the hands of someone else. To make anyone else happy, you have to feel the joy inside you first.

This has been the most exhilarating experience I’ve ever had in self-discovery to date. I no longer feel heavy, resentful, sad, and all of the other emotions that I had carried for so long. I freed myself of the burden, which only I could do.
Now, its your turn.

P.S.. Friends, I’m here for you. If you have questions about how I did it, how this works, or just need a listening ear, I’m here.