The Mama Chronicles: fear.

There are many fears that tag along when becoming a mom.  Add to that, being the mom of a special needs child.  When you list all of the possible things that could go wrong or happen to your perfect mini-me, one can understand that by their age of 18, you have either become certifiably insane or…

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Agony.

Your eyes are the ocean in which I drown every night.  Reaching for my next breath I’m unable to stay conscious.  Lost in your world, I will never belong for you are the enigma to my life.  Blue waves crash through my body.  It’s easy for others to assume they know me.  Yet you are…

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It’s dark inside.

Looking into your eyes I see a river that flows beyond my dreams.  I am a whirlwind.  I close in on the things in which I should not, for reasons unbeknownst to me.  There is a darkness that fuels my blood and seeps into my veins.  A fire is lit to bare my being to…

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a bleeding heart.

I sit alone in a dark room.  I wonder what would have happened if I had taken the chance.  Had I jumped at the opportunity, would my life be different?  I stayed.  I chose otherwise.  Pushing my heart’s desire back, I thought I made the right choice. Years passed.  I read the books and memorized…

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always.

There was a time when I imagined my life consisting of the simplest love.  The kind of love that didn’t require another person, yet another day, another avenue to pursue.  The cliché of a little girl’s dream of pure romance wasn’t out of reach in my mind.  I had hopes that one day my life…

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From my prospective.

Being called Mom is a privilege.  So many ladies out there would give anything just to hear those words.  Words that are easily taken for granted by the ones who are.  Add in an ounce of something extra, like an extra chromosome in my case, and let’s just say that no one is truly prepared…

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The Mama Chronicles: new house

Finally moving day has come!  Our construction site has blossomed into a beautiful brick home that I will adore for many years ahead.  The excitement screeches to a halt when the realization of moving reaches our kids.  Picture this: Packed moving boxes litter your current residence in preparation for their final resting spot at the…

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