Self care.

It’s so easy to lose track of caring for ourselves, especially when others depend on us.  We get preoccupied with schedules, deadlines, etc.              
I’ve let everyone & everything come before taking care of myself.  At the start of the new year I decided to take better care of myself so that I could be my best for everyone else.  Let me tell you… it’s SO worth it!

By starting with the small things, I think my new stance was a bit easier to swallow.  First things first.. no soda.
I know, I know.. it’s horrible for me in so many ways.  Understanding that and realizing that my choices in food (and drink) were having a negative impact on the way I felt, motivated me to choose better.  Also, I began eating clean.  That took a few days, reading, and recipe searching to get there, yet I got it.

Above all of the ways that I’m bettering my choices, I never realized how beneficial acupuncture has been.  I had aches & pains that were associated with an abundance of stress that I didn’t know how to “let go of”.  Acupuncture, and the acupuncturist, solidified the reality of self care.  Having the question asked “How do you relax?” was mind-blowing.  I had no answer.  I used to read, workout, and write (my passion has always been writing).  Over the years, I had let all of those things fall behind.  My life consisted of caring for our kids, working my boutique, and being a family.  I didn’t take much time for me.
I couldn’t answer the question because I had no idea how to unwind.  I tend to worry.  I let things bother me that probably shouldn’t.  Then I allow all of that occupy space in my mind and wreck havoc on my body.
No more!  It was suggested that I practice meditation.  Sit in a quiet space for no less than 20 minutes and just breathe. Think of nothing other than my incoming & outgoing breaths.  And do this twice daily.

After my acupuncture session, I was positive that the changes I thought would help, definitely would!  And so it began.

I don’t drink alcohol often.  If I do, it’s a glass of wine.  I have recently began enjoying a glass of wine a few evenings per week.  Not for any purpose, but to relax.  A glass of wine is for me.  Not to be in a partying atmosphere or to be out for the night.  Simply to enjoy at home.

I’m letting go of things I can’t control and grabbing the ones I can.  I can be anything or anyone I want to be!  Fear is the only thing holding me back.  I will not let something so debilitating stand in the way of my dreams.

My family and I are on a smooth road and enjoying every minute.  We are constantly evolving into the life we want, as opposed to the life we think we should settle for.  Our faith in God has grown stronger.  Our children are happy in their new home, church, school and are enjoying their new friends.  Actually, that’s a side topic, but I’ll add this.. we have met so many amazing friends.  Our life has enriched even more so. 

Setting aside fear, we’re taking journeys that, until now, we’ve only talked about. 
It’s taken me some time to realize that worrying about everything is absurd, but I get it.  Needless to say, I’m gaining a new perspective on things.  A more peaceful one. 
I’m no different than any other mom.. my kids fight, they get sick (and I lose sleep), at times we live outside of our means, but at the end of the day I can reflect on this:

I was given today.  Not by my doing, but by God.  He loves me enough to bless me with every breath.  He has more confidence in me than I have in myself, but I can do this!!  I’m thankful for every person, situation, and experience given.  After becoming a mom, I began to cherish moments, as opposed to things.  I’m still learning.

I began this post about two weeks ago.  I wanted you to see my sincerity in my changes.  I hope I accomplished that.

Until next time…